On​e of my greatest fears in the world is being betrayed by someone I loved. 
Love is scary for me because I am worried that I cannot trust my emotions. It is hard for me to have faith in love, specifically romantic love. 
I have come to the conclusion that I must use a balance of emotions and intellect. I cannot be blindly swept away by other people, no matter how enamored I am by them. Relationships are very complicated because human beings are imperfect.
I am very idealistic by nature, so this is hard for me to accept. 
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Past
In the past, I have had difficult experiences concerning romantic, platonic, and familial love. 
This has led to bitter endings and lingering feelings of resentment.
I am still in the process of forgiving those who have hurt me (and forgiving myself for hurting others). 

Attachment
I like to think of myself as a flexible person, but I am actually very stubborn once I have attached myself to a desired outcome or idea. 
Unfortunately, I used to find myself over-committing to things that drain my energy, are unhealthy for me, or are simply not a good fit. 
Now, I would like to think that I have better discernment as I am slightly more cautious than before. 


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